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Anonymous
The universal constraints of entropy are a harsh limit to existence, reality dictates my human existence to be much shorter then that, I try my best to make as little impact as possible because it’s inevitable that you will always create more disorder then order, but that leaves me feeling like a parasite of my own life.
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Anonymous
After being married for only a year… all I can think of is how lonely I am and how much I want to cheat!
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Anonymous
I’m having an affair with a guy I don’t even really like because I like the attention
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Anonymous
I’m going to kill myself on friday, I know that everyone will be happier.
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Anonymous
I’m so sick of the inconsiderate sons of b*tches that come into starbucks and pretense whatever it is that they’re ordering with “I want”. I mean c’mon, am I so devalued compared to you that you cant even aknowledge the fact that I just asked you how you were doing today!?
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Anonymous
Seriously its not that bad, there are kids in Ethiopia that have it bad you have issues that you can fix be thankful for that.
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Anonymous
Some people cut themselves.
I don’t like to bleed, but I want to hurt.
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Anonymous
I think I’m depresses and have turned to cutting my self I think of suidicde. Often I can’t tel my parents but I’m scared btw I’m 15 I feel useless help me ?
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cherrystarfry
Its pretty sad when your own friends wont let you talk to them so you need to resort to the internet, or the phone isnt it? Strangers are there for you, but youre friends arent. If anyone actually takes time to read what i have to say, i just want to thank you for your time, i really do appreciate it.. My own friends wont give me a couple of minutes to talk to them about my problems. Its pretty crazy the things some people can go through, so if you dont mind, i will get this off my chest for the first time. Im 17 and i have depression. I am always being mentally abused, and im always being used. No matter what i do to try to get the negativety off my mind it just never works.. I feel worthless, useless and i feel like a burden to everyone. Im failling school, im trying to get a job but its not working, and i feel isolated in my own mind – if that makes any sense. Like, my mind wont let me think outside of my head, i feel trapped in my thoughts. Most days i wish i was never born, i never existed, i never knew what life was. I know this is kinda sad but really my only friend is my cat.. She never leaves me and shes always there for me. Shes going to be passing away soon because she has heart and lung problems.. I dont really know whats gonna happen to me after she leaves. Im already starting to tear up just thinking of it. Ive actually thought of the way i want to go, but im too scared to do it. I cant think of any reason to not do it but im just too scared. I dont really want to go into details about my problems cause then it would just be a waste of your time. And please, leave out anything that has to do with religion.
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Tony
You are describing the symptoms of a MAJOR depressive episode. I know, I’ve had them. The chemicals in your brain that regulate emotions are not balanced. It is a hard thing to understand that a chemical imbalance can wreak such havoc in your life. You have to go to a doctor NOW. You will not always feel this way, you will get better. The feelings of being a burden and being “trapped in your head” will go away. The fog will lift, a brighter day will come. You must think of this as an illness, not something to be embarrassed about. Just like a broken leg needs time to heal, your brain needs time also. Be gentle with yourself, just as you would if you were recovering from the measles or any other disease. Now that I know that you exist and you are sick, I can think about you and try to comfort you. That is what a sick person needs. So you are worth a lot to me. Know that things will get better. Wrap your arms around yourself and give yourself a big hug from me. Know that someone is thinking of you and wishing you well, you are not alone. : )
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BadRomance
I love and hate the man that im with now. Right when we became officially boyfriend and girlfriend his ex figures out shes pregnant. He lied to me about for two years. Because so much time had passed and loved developed between us its hard to let go of him. I love him with all my heart be he continues to lie to me and think he is still sleeping with his baby mother. He gets mad at me when i accuse him of things, but he fails to realize that because he lied to me for so long i cant trust him. I feel so stuck in this relationship. I dont want to be with him because he lies so much to me. But I love him and we can have a possible bright future together if i can get over what he has done. but i don’t think i can… i wish i could stop loving him and just walk away from him with no remorse or feelings whatsoever…….
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Arizmic
Since feelings build over time it take just as much time to get rid of them COMPLETELY…I will say this though. You cannot change people. I know that is just cookie cutter advice, but really listen to it again. You. Cannot. Change. People.
I am saying that because if he is cheating, he will most-likely always be a cheater. If he is lying… he will undoubtably keep lying to you.
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itabella
Me and my best friend were inseparable. We literally did everything together, and we hung out everyday…I let her cry on my shoulder and I was always there we promised each other that nobody would ever come between us. EVEN BOYFRIENDS. but over the summer we grew apart becuase she was always ”working”… this tore me up inside because I had never had a friend like her before. I had other friends and other best friends but not ones i could be my complete self around. laugh and cry with and tell my deepest secrets… but i later came to find out that she was avoiding me. she finally confessed (after my multiple attempts to ”fix things”) that she had started liking her female work friend. i told her i really had no problem with that because i am all for people expressing their sexual orientation and being truly happy. i thought that it was over and we would be back to normal, and for a while it was. but now we walk past each other in the halls as if we were never a big part of each others lives. it kills me inside, and I’m so sad that i lost a friend who i loved dearly. its as if i am dead to her and i really wonder what i did wrong. i never once showed any sign of nonacceptance, and i actually asked her questions and wanted to know more about her love life. i tried so hard to be the friend i always was, and i guess it was not enough. its so hard to get over the fact that i lost a friend, its happened to me so many times and i suppose this was my tipping point. this is one of my most painful experiences yet.
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Arizmic
Have you considered the fact that se may feel extremely vulnerable after telling you about her sexual orientation? ( if she is keeping it a secret that is) And she is pushing you away because she feels like now you are very capable of hurting her if she ever upset you enough for you to do so.
For instance, she can have you in her life and risk you getting mad at her at some point and blowing her secret. Or she can keep you at a distance and know that her secret is safe… Just some food for thought you know?
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Anonymous
I’m 16, my best friend is a whore who lives on the east coast while I live in the midwest. She has no idea who I really am and all we seem to do is ERP. I’m lazy, I can’t seem to change that. I weigh about 300 lbs, as of last july, I havent wieghed myself since out of fear. My girlfriend dumped me last wednesday, and instead of cutting myself, I like to heat up paperclips with a lighter I stole from my father and press them into the back of my left hand, leaving scars so that I can see how fucked up my life is. Other than that, I’ve tried killing myself several times over, only to be talked out of it by my former girlfriend, so I can’t be too sure my next attempt won’t succeed. Also, I think I’m becomming a sociopath. I don’t have a little voice that tells me not to do things because they’re wrong. I have a little voice that tells me not do to things because other people will hurt me if I do “bad” things.
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Anonymous
i am in love with a boy who doesn’t want to be with me.
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Winkle
How can you be so sure he doesn’t want to be with you?
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Anonymous
I’m not sure if I’ve found the girl of my dreams, but I already can’t have her…she’s single too….
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Winkle
What is stopping you!?!?!
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Anonymous
I just got ditched by my study group…I am so freaking pissed right now!
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Anonymous
i finally have my first boyfriend, he asked me on valentines day and it was the cutest thing ever! im so happy
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Arizmic
Awesome! That is so freaking cool! Congratulations!
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Anonymous
To the creator and operator of this site, it has been a blessing to my life. A place to release the tension, talk to people. And most of all hopefully help people someday.
Thank you.
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admin
Thank you for the kind words
My intentions are just that, so comments like yours makes it all worth it.
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Anonymous
whoa nellie…
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Russo
Re-show her and maybe she won’t be so anxious to run…
(Nellie is a female horses name right? lol)
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Anonymous
I am a sixteen year old. I have never had sex. I have never had my first kiss. I all of my time online because I’ve never fit in anywhere. I have DSI, or Dissociative Identity Disorder, meaning that I have more than one person in my skull. There are five. There is the annoying, hyper person. There is the one always looking to take revenge on society. There is the genius, always logical and calm. There is the depressed and alienated child. And then there is the one that watches it all but is helpless to do anything. I have no life outside the internet. I have never attempted to find help. I probably never will. I am a coward. I am afraid of change, of help. I do not want anyone else to know how I work. I don’t even know how I work. I want to be able to lock myself in a box and be alone for the rest of my life. If you haven’t yet noticed, this is 4 talking. I don’t know if anyone COULD help me. I needed somewhere to say this all, and I thought this would be perfect. I don’t know if anyone’s listening, and I don’t care. I want others to know about me, even if they don’t like me.
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Winkle
I am listening. i am sure there is help available if you really want it. But YOU! ( even all 5 of you) have to want it. If you all cannot come to a decision, just get on venting tree and talk to the community here. It is a great place and very helpful in times of need.
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Lucas
I would suggest trying to get out of your box just for a day or so and experience what life has to offer. I think once you realize how amazing things can be when you get up and get active, you will never want to return to your solo box again. And if it doesn’t work, then return back to where you are comfortable, at least till you are ready to try again. You’ll never get that first kiss my surfin the internet all day.. The world’s a playground! So get out into it and play!! Cuz it’s Insanly Fun!
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Anonymous
What does a 16 year old girl get her new boy friend for valentines day?
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Daniel
Nothing dealing with sex… I do not know why I feel inclined to say that.. but yeah DO NOT do that. haha
Um something nice? If he is 16 too? Maybe a new shirt, buy him lunch, go out to a movie, the simple candy hearts arranged to say something might be nice, anything to show you like/ care for him.
Believe it or not some guys like goof and caring girls. (most do but won’t admit it..)
BE CREATIVE! =-)
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Apple
I’m pretty sure I’m depressed. Again. I’ve always felt that I was depressed but had an especially bad four months three years ago when I seriously contemplated suicide and actually went to see a therapist. It helped a lot, at least until my Mom died two years ago. I think that the fact that I am able to keep living, that life has to go on even though she is dead bothers me more then anything. These past couple months have been really bad and I’ve been wondering if I’m actually depressed or if I’m just feeling down, like everyone does sometimes. But I’ve been reading some stuff online, and I feel like I am actually depressed. But I don’t want to tell anyone. Everyone has there own shit to deal with — why would they want to deal with mine? I’m just so sick of trying to so hard to be happy. I either feel numb or just want to lay in bed and cry. I keep thinking that maybe if I just do something, keep busy I will be ok…but as soon as I stop my emotions catch up with me and I just feel like I’m never going to really be happy. I have good friends, and family who love me, a good home, a Dad who loves me. I know that I should be thankful and happy for what I have, because there are people who have far less…but I can’t help it.
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John Hal
It was early in the morning, and I’d barely woken up. Thoughts of anguish and torment fresh in my head. I sat down on my Facebook and began to write. I poured my being into two conversations with myself with no rational reason behind my actions. I waited for a while, and later in the day, she commented. She asked where I’d been comming up with these wonderful things. I said that my mind is a wonderous place, but my mouth fouls the thoughts whenever I vocalize them. From then on, we talked. I don’t know why I did it, but I opened myself to her. I asked her if she thought I should die. I had been planning to off myself on that friday, two bottles of sleeping pills. Quick and painless. She told me that I shouldn’t. She said that she found more value in our conversations over the past few days than she’d found in a long time. I believed her, and I kept talking to her. She loves music, absolutely loves it. She literally has a song for every sentance possible. As we talked and listened to eachother’s words and songs, my heart reached out to her, and one day, I realized that I loved her. I had to say it online, I would have never found the courage to tell her face to face. I told her, and it was one of the best feelings I’d ever had, to open myself to someone and not be rejected. My old name, the one associated with all my pain and suffering, needed to be replaced, so that there would be a title that fit the new me. I chose John Hal, and by god, I’ve never been happier.
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Arizmic
You are right in times like these it feels as though you cannot help it. I guess I would say that I would look deep within yourself and ask if you have really come to terms with your mothers death? I know that is hard to hear, and even harder to do, but it is important in the healing process. As you very well may know there are the 5 stages of dying: Denial Anger Bargaining Depression Acceptance. Although you are not dying you are still dealing with the death of a loved one. Honestly, you could still be stuck in the depression stage, as it is not an easy one to “kick” (or get out of).
I am sure you could go crazy and google everything there is on the stages and how to cope or move on but this was the site I found and liked: http://oldfashionedliving.com/dying.html
If you need to talk about it and cannot afford another visit to the therapist, I am sure the wonderful people of Venting Tree would be more than happy to talk with you, I know I would.
Sincerely,
Arizimic
Ps. John Hal, Congratulations, and Live life to the fullest I am happy you are still alive.
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Anonymous
I think I may have to cut a friend loose here shortly and it really sucks, but I believe it to be the best thing right now. The negativity and the actions are bringing me down and affecting those around her. It makes me sad but it must be done.
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Nic
Why must it be done?
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Winkle
It is easy to burn a bridge, but much harder to rebuild it.
Take time, deliberate with another friend or loved one over your decision, do not act on impulse.
I have made that mistake often in my life, I would not suggest it.
Good luck.
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Anonymous
i’ve been crushing on this guy for a few weeks now, and tonight we finally kissed. it was amazing. ahhhhh i feel great
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Winkle
Good for you! That is such a great feeling! First kisses rock!
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Nic
WHOO HOOOOOO!!!!
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Anonymous
I can’t stand my wife. According to her, everything I’ve done for us has been the wrong decision. Yet she can’t work full time to help pay for all the things she wanted because of her artistic “passion”. We are nothing but roommates under a cease-fire. If it weren’t for our beautilful 2 year old daughter, I’d have been gone months ago.
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Daniel
That sucks man. The old jokes are,”you can be right or you can be happy. Happy wife, happy life.”
In a situation like that I guess there is nothing you can do but stick it out for your beautiful little girl at the least.
Of course there is always marriage counseling and stuff, but both parties have to admit there is a problem before that can work.
I wish you the best of luck.
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Nic
I agree with Daniel, GOOD LUCK!
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Phill 6:25 pm on March 9, 2010 Permalink |
IT WON’T MAKE ME HAPPIER!! :’(
admin 6:35 pm on March 9, 2010 Permalink |
It won’t me happier either!! PLEASE try calling a helpline such as the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255) or Contact Me with you email and I’ll send you my phone number and we can talk. Don’t keep it a secret, let your family, friends and other close people around you know how you’re feeling and I think come to find you are much more loved that you think.
Tony 11:36 pm on March 9, 2010 Permalink |
There is hope. You are not a burden, Please tell someone your situation. I have been in your shoes….talk to me…