Having a shitty day and I just don’t know what to do, nothing is making me feel better. My boyfriend has pissed me off because he isnt speaking to be – not on purpose just usually were constantly talking and suddenly he’s more interested in speaking to my EX best friend, my best friends aren’t really my best friends and are just using me oh…and i have exams tomorrow, in the subject I do best in, but my brain is so fucked at the moment I’m not understand a word of it. I’m scared and feeling alone. Really, WHAT’S THE FUCKING POINT!
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I am seriously contemplating killing myself. I just don’t know if there is any point anymore. I just want to end it. I want to fall asleep and never wake up. If only death was so peaceful. The only thing stopping me is my fear. I’m scared of pain and I’m scared of what happens if i fail. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Death seems to be like the best option when there aren’t any others. I just can’t do this anymore. Help Me.
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My boyfriend is taking his best friend thats a girl to the theme park as a belated birthday present.
He know’s that me and this girl really don’t get on and decides to constantly talk about it non stop.
HOW CAN HE NOT FUCKING GET THAT THAT WOULD PISS ME OFF. WHAT A FUCKING DICK HEAD!!!!!! -
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How come his comeuppance never comes. How come he gets what he wants, when he wants it otherwise everyone in any sort of close proximity must suffer. How come he always seem to land on his two feet. Why is he able to treat me like utter shit, abuse me and yet not feel even a shred of guilt. He is a cold hearted monster, and yet I am unable to get free of him. I’m fully aware of my stupidity, why do I never learn. Why do I always end up picking up the piece, amending all he has broken. Why do I always end up believing that this time would be different and he wasn’t just using me for one thing or another. I just don’t understand why I am so foolish, he is nothing special. In fact he is less than that, he is dirt. Yet I can not help myself. We either fight until eventually he will win or I will give in. I always give in, because I can bare to fight with him no longer. I only wish that he would grow up and stop acting like such a self centered ass hole. I know that day will not come soon, he’s a spoilt brat who puts himself before anyone else. I hate him, but I know that by tomorrow or next week, it will be as though nothing ever happened. I live with him and I just can’t help but forgive him. Somewhere inside me I need to find some strength. How can I be so smart and yet so stupid. I guess I’ll just never learn. I need someway of standing up to him without hurting myself. I just don’t know what that is.
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Life won’t wait for you. It keeps you on your toes, making you run for all you’re worth. But one of two things happen. You start to run too fast, loose yourself and end up trailing behind because you couldn’t keep a steady pace. And then there’s when you don’t run fast enough, you loose sight of where life is. Either way you end up behind, trailing behind. Wishing you could be back at the front. Back to you’re state of comfortable and clarity, worry free. Yet you press on, because there’s no other option. You must go on. You don’t know where you’re going and have to trust that the path you choose is the right one. Because in life, there’s no back tracking. No re-do, erasing what you’ve done or forgetting the history you made. No. Time won’t allow you to dwell eternally, staying put is not an option. Don’t get be wrong, you always end up somewhere. Whether it’s where you planned to end up or somewhere completely new. No matter how hard the journey is, no matter how hard you had to run and fight to keep up. Along the way you’ll come across something, someone, worth pressing on for. Some forgotten treasure, some undiscovered blossom. Something unequivocally beautiful, something unquestionably pure and radiant. Something that helps you see clearer, think harder and love stronger.
I only wish that I could believe that I could find it and even then, deserve it. -
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If I go out with him, it could ruin everything. But if I don’t I’ll end up hating myself for it.
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Life sucks.
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Serious question…what is the point in life? It only fucks you over in some way or another. I honestly have no idea why I bother, I guess it’s the hope that something good will come along, but then oh wait…it wouldn’t surprise me if I fucked that up too. They say its better to have loved than never at all. Right now, I’m really not so sure. In the end, we’ll be left with nothing and no one, so why are we so detirmined to fight that?
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