The Venting Tree » Anonymous http://ventingtree.com real-time confession and venting Thu, 10 May 2012 04:37:50 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 I called the national suicide hotline the other day. I was on hold for such a long time, I couldn’t… http://ventingtree.com/i-called-the-national-suicide-hotline-the-other-day-i-was-on-hold-for-such-a-long-time-i-couldnt/ http://ventingtree.com/i-called-the-national-suicide-hotline-the-other-day-i-was-on-hold-for-such-a-long-time-i-couldnt/#comments Thu, 26 Apr 2012 04:56:57 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/i-called-the-national-suicide-hotline-the-other-day-i-was-on-hold-for-such-a-long-time-i-couldnt/ I called the national suicide hotline the other day. I was on hold for such a long time, I couldn’t continue with call.

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]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-107/feed/ 0 Please, just… stop being such a sycophant. http://ventingtree.com/please-just-stop-being-such-a-sycophant/ http://ventingtree.com/please-just-stop-being-such-a-sycophant/#comments Sun, 22 Apr 2012 03:32:04 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/please-just-stop-being-such-a-sycophant/ Please, just… stop being such a sycophant.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/please-just-stop-being-such-a-sycophant/feed/ 0 Ive dated someone for 3 months, they said they loved me so much, and would never leave me. They left… http://ventingtree.com/ive-dated-someone-for-3-months-they-said-they-loved-me-so-much-and-would-never-leave-me-they-left/ http://ventingtree.com/ive-dated-someone-for-3-months-they-said-they-loved-me-so-much-and-would-never-leave-me-they-left/#comments Fri, 20 Apr 2012 19:15:20 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/ive-dated-someone-for-3-months-they-said-they-loved-me-so-much-and-would-never-leave-me-they-left/ Ive dated someone for 3 months, they said they loved me so much, and would never leave me. They left me for another girl, and i pretend to be ok with it. I pretend to not care about the mean things he says to me. Like im ugly, annoying, and useless. While he gets to be the happiest person in the world with her, im sitting here broken. And he makes it worse. He doesnt give a crap about me and he thinks im ok with it. Im not

]]> http://ventingtree.com/ive-dated-someone-for-3-months-they-said-they-loved-me-so-much-and-would-never-leave-me-they-left/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-106/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-106/#comments Tue, 17 Apr 2012 07:48:37 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-106/ I am angry because he broke my heart. I am angry because he said nasty things about me and accused me of things I didn’t do. I am angry because he chose the other girl instead of me. The one time I truly love someone and they toss me around like dirt. I HATE him so much some days I just want to throw things at him. Scream profanities. YOU HURT ME ASSHOLE! Don’t say we can “be friends” after all this. You ruined the friendship by not trusting me and blowing me off. This is my heart we’re talking about. This is a fragile, gentle organ and you tore it up to shreds! I’m going to slay my violin as the soloist in tomorrow’s concert and you sure as hell WON’T HEAR how amazing I will sound! You (yes you jerk who broke my heart) I HATE you.

For the record this is me pretending to vent on the person. It is not directed at the person reading it.
Just wanted to clarify.
Yes…that is how I feel.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-106/feed/ 0 Okay so I haven’t talked to anyone about this except my boyfriend but he doesnt understand me. We h… http://ventingtree.com/okay-so-i-havent-talked-to-anyone-about-this-except-my-boyfriend-but-he-doesnt-understand-me-we-h/ http://ventingtree.com/okay-so-i-havent-talked-to-anyone-about-this-except-my-boyfriend-but-he-doesnt-understand-me-we-h/#comments Tue, 17 Apr 2012 07:48:24 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/okay-so-i-havent-talked-to-anyone-about-this-except-my-boyfriend-but-he-doesnt-understand-me-we-h/ Okay so I haven’t talked to anyone about this except my boyfriend but he doesnt understand me. We have been together for 5 years and have lived together the entire time minus maybe 6months. We both partied when we first met, and a couple years later I decided to stop partying but he continued. I stuck by his side through everything I didn’t want to do and waited for him to be done with drinking. Its been a while together and I’ve been in his house, theres no pictures of mine on the walls, I only own my clothes and only have a dresser and a couple of automins that have space in them that I fill with my stuff. I feel like it’s never been my home because I have to pick and choose who, or if I want to invite a friend over but he has everyone and anyone over at any time even if he knows I dont like them. I have a car but never go anywhere, but he goes out and sometimes doesnt even tell me where or when he’s coming back. I have seen so much of him, and him of me that I asked him if he would go with the idea of living apart but still being with each other. I have always wanted my own space but not as bad as I do now because we fight often and my anamosity comes from being stuck in his house. I wont even just get up and go because I dont feel good about him not liking it. Ive spent a year trying to get him to understand that if we stay living together we will break up because we fight all the time and have different lifestyles. All I want to do is have my own place, not clean up after him everyday, have peace and quit, and a place of my own to study hard as I am in school. I feel worse everyday because him saying no is like telling me that Im stuck in his house until he decides to let me breathe. I dont have any furniture there, no paintings on the wall, No nice things because he doesnt treat my stuff with the same respect that I treat his stuff. It’s a full time job picking up after him and cleaning up burn marks from his cigarettes, and ashes all over the place. Like i love him and want to be with him but I dont want to do these things anymore because it is driving me further away from him and he doesnt get that. Can anyone tell me if I am being selfish by wanting my own place? Do relationships accualy get stronger when you dont have to see or hear things that bother you everyday? Is it fair that a place that I’ve paid rent for, for that many years isn’t even really mine? I mean I could move anytime but I dont want to on bad terms because I still love him and want to work it out but he wont let me get my own space even after I asked him to help me find a place that he wouldnt mind me living in.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/okay-so-i-havent-talked-to-anyone-about-this-except-my-boyfriend-but-he-doesnt-understand-me-we-h/feed/ 1 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-105/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-105/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:25:49 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-105/ My boyfriend and I were dating for about 4 months- my shortest relationship. I fell in love with the two boyfriends I had before him… but they were different kinds of love. Each one, I knew wasn’t going to last, or just wasn’t *quite* right, despite being great experiences. But this last one way different. I had never felt this way about anyone else- so comfortable, so much desire to show him my love and appreciation, so much desire to learn and grow together, to support and nurture and challenge each other. I saw him in my future. I was utterly confident that we would end up together. He broke up with me a month ago because his anxiety got in the way of everything and caused him to fall out of love with me (even though he still respects and cares for me). It’s been over a month, and I’m still in love with him the same way I used to be. He needs time to readjust and find himself. I just want to reach out and support him and show him how much I care about him. I want to help him find happiness again. But I also want to be with him. I can’t get the idea out of my head that one day we will be together, and it will eventually be for the rest of our lives. But this idea is making me miserable in the present. I think about him ALL the time, no matter what I am doing. I can’t stop the thoughts from penetrating my mind… and they often feel like stabs, cutting deep. But I can’t stop loving him.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-105/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-104/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-104/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:25:25 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-104/ Sometimes I feel like I don’t have real/close friends. Just because I’m not alone, doesn’t mean I’m not lonely.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-104/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-103/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-103/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:25:15 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-103/ Well my mom has been sleeping all day, and I feel completely worthless. At times I feel as if she doesn’t care about me. Like she has apathy, for me! I believe it partakes her wicked disorder, she is bi-polar. Beautiful, Eh?

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-103/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-102/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-102/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:24:54 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-102/ Don’t know what’s going on this week. People never returned calls, people ignore my whatsapp messages, I feel like the entire world is turning their backs on me. even my special one talks differently, i feel optional. I’m used to having attention from girls. Girls chit chat and have deep conversations with me regularly, not this week.

Communication with people isn’t great this week. Work isn’t smooth as well. Nothing ever goes my way. Quotation from supplier got cancelled because they can’t offer the same price anymore. other contractors charged me for VO meaning I need to pay extra.

I don’t know man. I feel lonely all of a sudden. I am emotionally weak. I am insecure. I need a hug from her to tell me everything’s okay, including us.

Could it be Black Friday the 13th?

I wish miss A didn’t go to sleep just like that last night. And still not responding to my whatsapp in the morning. I knew she wasn’t last seen online with me. I just wan’t the last one on her mind.

I wish miss P wouldn’t go offline just like that. Would have been nicer if we had a proper closure to the conversation.

I wish miss N didn’t ignore my “Hello”. She usually responded cheerfully and I really miss the normal N.

I wish miss F would respond to me while she was out. Usually she reports to me everywhere she does/whatever she does.

I wiss mister L would answer my questions directly. I feel he’s avoiding me maybe I suffocate him.

What the fuck is wrong with me???? I didn’t do anything special this week.

Guess I’m done. Thank you The Venting Tree!

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-102/feed/ 0 Oh so all you wanted to do was hook up and have sex? UH NO, WTF TYPE OF PERSON DO YOU THINK I AM?!?!… http://ventingtree.com/oh-so-all-you-wanted-to-do-was-hook-up-and-have-sex-uh-no-wtf-type-of-person-do-you-think-i-am/ http://ventingtree.com/oh-so-all-you-wanted-to-do-was-hook-up-and-have-sex-uh-no-wtf-type-of-person-do-you-think-i-am/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:24:42 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/oh-so-all-you-wanted-to-do-was-hook-up-and-have-sex-uh-no-wtf-type-of-person-do-you-think-i-am/ Oh so all you wanted to do was hook up and have sex? UH NO, WTF TYPE OF PERSON DO YOU THINK I AM?!?! It’s crazy how people are and act nowadays.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/oh-so-all-you-wanted-to-do-was-hook-up-and-have-sex-uh-no-wtf-type-of-person-do-you-think-i-am/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-101/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-101/#comments Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:04:16 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-101/ I’m done.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-101/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-100/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-100/#comments Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:04:08 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-100/ Cast in the name of God, Ye not guilty.
I will have this tattooed on me at some point.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-100/feed/ 1 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-99/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-99/#comments Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:03:58 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-99/ I’m waiting for the pills to start working. My sleeping pills. I hope I have enough time to sleep it off.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-99/feed/ 0 It really hurts to be lonely. I get insecure about how other people feel about me and how I act, and… http://ventingtree.com/it-really-hurts-to-be-lonely-i-get-insecure-about-how-other-people-feel-about-me-and-how-i-act-and/ http://ventingtree.com/it-really-hurts-to-be-lonely-i-get-insecure-about-how-other-people-feel-about-me-and-how-i-act-and/#comments Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:03:50 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/it-really-hurts-to-be-lonely-i-get-insecure-about-how-other-people-feel-about-me-and-how-i-act-and/ It really hurts to be lonely. I get insecure about how other people feel about me and how I act, and gosh, it hurts so much. Sometimes I get over the top without thinking, but it sucks that only afterwards, I really realize how much of a fool I made myself look. Those mistakes build down on me and I feel like crying all the time. I do cry all the time.. and even though it may feel a bit better at that moment, the pain still comes back. I don’t want to think about their opinions anymore, I don’t want to worry anymore, I don’t want to cry anymore.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/it-really-hurts-to-be-lonely-i-get-insecure-about-how-other-people-feel-about-me-and-how-i-act-and/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-98/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-98/#comments Tue, 10 Apr 2012 20:48:33 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-98/ Why can’t my dad just say something nice about what I’ve done in life!

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-98/feed/ 0 Why do I fall for the things you say? http://ventingtree.com/why-do-i-fall-for-the-things-you-say/ http://ventingtree.com/why-do-i-fall-for-the-things-you-say/#comments Tue, 10 Apr 2012 20:48:25 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/why-do-i-fall-for-the-things-you-say/ Why do I fall for the things you say?

]]> http://ventingtree.com/why-do-i-fall-for-the-things-you-say/feed/ 0 My wife of 15 yrs refuses to go to Opera/plays with me.( a new interest). I go alone. Pisses me off. http://ventingtree.com/my-wife-of-15-yrs-refuses-to-go-to-operaplays-with-me-a-new-interest-i-go-alone-pisses-me-off/ http://ventingtree.com/my-wife-of-15-yrs-refuses-to-go-to-operaplays-with-me-a-new-interest-i-go-alone-pisses-me-off/#comments Fri, 06 Apr 2012 17:29:48 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/my-wife-of-15-yrs-refuses-to-go-to-operaplays-with-me-a-new-interest-i-go-alone-pisses-me-off/ My wife of 15 yrs refuses to go to Opera/plays with me.( a new interest). I go alone. Pisses me off.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/my-wife-of-15-yrs-refuses-to-go-to-operaplays-with-me-a-new-interest-i-go-alone-pisses-me-off/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-97/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-97/#comments Mon, 26 Mar 2012 20:00:02 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-97/ Why can’t I ever feel comfortable in my own body? Why can’t I like what I see in the mirror? There’s days where I’m like okay yeah I feel confident and beautiful and then I see someone who is prettier than me and it changes everything. Hmmmph…..

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-97/feed/ 0 i told my girlfriend not go to the party that night, she knew who was gonna be there. She said they … http://ventingtree.com/i-told-my-girlfriend-not-go-to-the-party-that-night-she-knew-who-was-gonna-be-there-she-said-they/ http://ventingtree.com/i-told-my-girlfriend-not-go-to-the-party-that-night-she-knew-who-was-gonna-be-there-she-said-they/#comments Mon, 26 Mar 2012 19:59:51 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/i-told-my-girlfriend-not-go-to-the-party-that-night-she-knew-who-was-gonna-be-there-she-said-they/ i told my girlfriend not go to the party that night, she knew who was gonna be there. She said they were civil and that he agreed to never speak to her again. I held her hand in the bathtub for hours as she attempted to tell me the details of how he raped her. I need a heavier baseball bat.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/i-told-my-girlfriend-not-go-to-the-party-that-night-she-knew-who-was-gonna-be-there-she-said-they/feed/ 0 My friends fight all the time, and always force me to pick sides. They never think about me and how … http://ventingtree.com/my-friends-fight-all-the-time-and-always-force-me-to-pick-sides-they-never-think-about-me-and-how/ http://ventingtree.com/my-friends-fight-all-the-time-and-always-force-me-to-pick-sides-they-never-think-about-me-and-how/#comments Mon, 19 Mar 2012 16:56:51 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/my-friends-fight-all-the-time-and-always-force-me-to-pick-sides-they-never-think-about-me-and-how/ My friends fight all the time, and always force me to pick sides. They never think about me and how the argument is affecting me. It pisses my off, because I never get a say. Then, when I cry about it, they act like it wasn’t ever they’re fault.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/my-friends-fight-all-the-time-and-always-force-me-to-pick-sides-they-never-think-about-me-and-how/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-96/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-96/#comments Thu, 08 Mar 2012 02:20:42 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-96/ sometimes

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-96/feed/ 0 I’ve been with you for 3 years and never loved anyone more. It broke my heart to give your ring bac… http://ventingtree.com/ive-been-with-you-for-3-years-and-never-loved-anyone-more-it-broke-my-heart-to-give-your-ring-bac/ http://ventingtree.com/ive-been-with-you-for-3-years-and-never-loved-anyone-more-it-broke-my-heart-to-give-your-ring-bac/#comments Wed, 07 Mar 2012 20:29:13 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/ive-been-with-you-for-3-years-and-never-loved-anyone-more-it-broke-my-heart-to-give-your-ring-bac/ I’ve been with you for 3 years and never loved anyone more. It broke my heart to give your ring back. But Travis came to me and told me you weren’t calling it off because you didn’t want to Hurt me. I love u and want a baby so bad but can never bring myself to tell you. When you ran off to Texas by yourself our relationship changed, and it still hurts me that you left without batting an eye. On one hand I want to be your wife and have your babies on the other I’m still wary of giving you my heart all the way again. You think you have me whole heartedly but that’s a sham. I love you but I’m still hurt

]]> http://ventingtree.com/ive-been-with-you-for-3-years-and-never-loved-anyone-more-it-broke-my-heart-to-give-your-ring-bac/feed/ 0 I need to get laid more often. I’m sorry of this sounds a little disturbing to anyone, I really am…. http://ventingtree.com/i-need-to-get-laid-more-often-im-sorry-of-this-sounds-a-little-disturbing-to-anyone-i-really-am/ http://ventingtree.com/i-need-to-get-laid-more-often-im-sorry-of-this-sounds-a-little-disturbing-to-anyone-i-really-am/#comments Mon, 05 Mar 2012 22:31:01 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/i-need-to-get-laid-more-often-im-sorry-of-this-sounds-a-little-disturbing-to-anyone-i-really-am/ I need to get laid more often. I’m sorry of this sounds a little disturbing to anyone, I really am. you see I have severe forms of intimacy issues which masked me fairly disabled to form any kinds of emotional connections. but I still feel the need for physical connections, and no I don’t want to pay for a hooker cause I can’t afford it Burr also because

]]> http://ventingtree.com/i-need-to-get-laid-more-often-im-sorry-of-this-sounds-a-little-disturbing-to-anyone-i-really-am/feed/ 0 Nobody listens to Gordon! I’m a little slow to talk but smart if you listen! I now know why my teac… http://ventingtree.com/nobody-listens-to-gordon-im-a-little-slow-to-talk-but-smart-if-you-listen-i-now-know-why-my-teac/ http://ventingtree.com/nobody-listens-to-gordon-im-a-little-slow-to-talk-but-smart-if-you-listen-i-now-know-why-my-teac/#comments Sun, 26 Feb 2012 17:59:47 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/nobody-listens-to-gordon-im-a-little-slow-to-talk-but-smart-if-you-listen-i-now-know-why-my-teac/ Nobody listens to Gordon! I’m a little slow to talk but smart if you listen! I now know why my teachers used to say “Listen!”. I feel so invisible!
Love Peace Linux!

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