Its pretty sad when your own friends wont let you talk to them so you need to resort to the internet, or the phone isnt it? Strangers are there for you, but youre friends arent. If anyone actually takes time to read what i have to say, i just want to thank you for your time, i really do appreciate it.. My own friends wont give me a couple of minutes to talk to them about my problems. Its pretty crazy the things some people can go through, so if you dont mind, i will get this off my chest for the first time. Im 17 and i have depression. I am always being mentally abused, and im always being used. No matter what i do to try to get the negativety off my mind it just never works.. I feel worthless, useless and i feel like a burden to everyone. Im failling school, im trying to get a job but its not working, and i feel isolated in my own mind – if that makes any sense. Like, my mind wont let me think outside of my head, i feel trapped in my thoughts. Most days i wish i was never born, i never existed, i never knew what life was. I know this is kinda sad but really my only friend is my cat.. She never leaves me and shes always there for me. Shes going to be passing away soon because she has heart and lung problems.. I dont really know whats gonna happen to me after she leaves. Im already starting to tear up just thinking of it. Ive actually thought of the way i want to go, but im too scared to do it. I cant think of any reason to not do it but im just too scared. I dont really want to go into details about my problems cause then it would just be a waste of your time. And please, leave out anything that has to do with religion.