The Venting Tree http://ventingtree.com real-time confession and venting Thu, 10 May 2012 04:37:50 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 Right now, I feel like I’m just a ghost floating through this lost world. there are people out ther… http://ventingtree.com/right-now-i-feel-like-im-just-a-ghost-floating-through-this-lost-world-there-are-people-out-ther/ http://ventingtree.com/right-now-i-feel-like-im-just-a-ghost-floating-through-this-lost-world-there-are-people-out-ther/#comments Thu, 10 May 2012 04:37:50 +0000 hopiebear http://ventingtree.com/right-now-i-feel-like-im-just-a-ghost-floating-through-this-lost-world-there-are-people-out-ther/ Right now, I feel like I’m just a ghost floating through this lost world. there are people out there with such bigger problems, but I feel like im losing everything. I have pneumonia(again), my boyfriend refuses to acknowledge my existence yet he still claims I’m the “centrifuge” of his life still even though he says he can’t get enough mobey together to go with me to my senior prom. I feel really unwanted, unloved, and forgotten. I’m lost and don’t know.what to do anymore.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/right-now-i-feel-like-im-just-a-ghost-floating-through-this-lost-world-there-are-people-out-ther/feed/ 2 This seems like such a petty gripe, but for some reason I can’t stop being upset. I have a heart co… http://ventingtree.com/this-seems-like-such-a-petty-gripe-but-for-some-reason-i-cant-stop-being-upset-i-have-a-heart-co/ http://ventingtree.com/this-seems-like-such-a-petty-gripe-but-for-some-reason-i-cant-stop-being-upset-i-have-a-heart-co/#comments Wed, 09 May 2012 00:13:36 +0000 skyisfalling http://ventingtree.com/this-seems-like-such-a-petty-gripe-but-for-some-reason-i-cant-stop-being-upset-i-have-a-heart-co/ This seems like such a petty gripe, but for some reason I can’t stop being upset. I have a heart condition that I take beta blockers for, and I really only have enough to last me until tomorrow morning. My mum won’t take me to the doctor to get a repeat prescription for another 2 days. Beta blockers can cause cardiac arrest if you come off them abruptly. I’ve tried telling her this, but she doesn’t care. Her reason? She won’t have money for it until then. She won’t even let me pay for it myself. I have no choice but to ration out the pills… my heart rate is twice the normal rate already.
Also, it’s my birthday in 2 days. The last thing I want to be doing on my birthday is going to a doctor. I’m slightly phobic of doctors and hospitals. But I suppose I should have expected it. My birthdays always sucked, and just because I’ve overcome severe depression, I shouldn’t have thought things would be different. Birthdays will always be horrible, and people will always be untrustworthy.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/this-seems-like-such-a-petty-gripe-but-for-some-reason-i-cant-stop-being-upset-i-have-a-heart-co/feed/ 1 Have u ever wanted to just run away? I feel that way right now. There are people who depend on me to… http://ventingtree.com/have-u-ever-wanted-to-just-run-away-i-feel-that-way-right-now-there-are-people-who-depend-on-me-to/ http://ventingtree.com/have-u-ever-wanted-to-just-run-away-i-feel-that-way-right-now-there-are-people-who-depend-on-me-to/#comments Fri, 27 Apr 2012 05:59:11 +0000 FIRENOICE http://ventingtree.com/have-u-ever-wanted-to-just-run-away-i-feel-that-way-right-now-there-are-people-who-depend-on-me-to/ Have u ever wanted to just run away? I feel that way right now. There are people who depend on me to hold it together but it’s real hard to do so when people use you as a scapegoat for their f%$- ups you know. Then as if it’s not stressful enough i feel i need to play captain sava. WHY DO I EVEN GIVE A CRAP? OK it’s gonna be a bad rest of the month. I’ve been through far worse situations and got back up. I CAN DO IT…. WHOO I THINK I FEEL BETTER.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/have-u-ever-wanted-to-just-run-away-i-feel-that-way-right-now-there-are-people-who-depend-on-me-to/feed/ 0 I just found this website and i really need some advice. I have lately discovered I have a HUGE chan… http://ventingtree.com/i-just-found-this-website-and-i-really-need-some-advice-i-have-lately-discovered-i-have-a-huge-chan/ http://ventingtree.com/i-just-found-this-website-and-i-really-need-some-advice-i-have-lately-discovered-i-have-a-huge-chan/#comments Fri, 27 Apr 2012 01:40:36 +0000 Nikki http://ventingtree.com/i-just-found-this-website-and-i-really-need-some-advice-i-have-lately-discovered-i-have-a-huge-chan/ I just found this website and i really need some advice. I have lately discovered I have a HUGE chance of severe depression, and the worst part is, I dont feel like I can talk to anyone. Not even my closest friends or my parents. It really scares me. I don’t want to hurt myself, and i really never think about that, but i have ALL of the other symptoms of severe depression. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. I’m just afraid that if i say anything to my parents or my friends that they’ll judge me or say im doing it for attention or spread it around school. (Yeah, I have friends that would do that.) I had a 72 on a depression test and anything over 50 was severe depression. I’m just too afraid to tell anyone.. what if im wrong?? what if they think im lying?? SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT TO DO.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/i-just-found-this-website-and-i-really-need-some-advice-i-have-lately-discovered-i-have-a-huge-chan/feed/ 4 I called the national suicide hotline the other day. I was on hold for such a long time, I couldn’t… http://ventingtree.com/i-called-the-national-suicide-hotline-the-other-day-i-was-on-hold-for-such-a-long-time-i-couldnt/ http://ventingtree.com/i-called-the-national-suicide-hotline-the-other-day-i-was-on-hold-for-such-a-long-time-i-couldnt/#comments Thu, 26 Apr 2012 04:56:57 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/i-called-the-national-suicide-hotline-the-other-day-i-was-on-hold-for-such-a-long-time-i-couldnt/ I called the national suicide hotline the other day. I was on hold for such a long time, I couldn’t continue with call.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/i-called-the-national-suicide-hotline-the-other-day-i-was-on-hold-for-such-a-long-time-i-couldnt/feed/ 0 My ex is sick, and all I want to do is make a cup of tea with honey and bring it to him. No explanat… http://ventingtree.com/my-ex-is-sick-and-all-i-want-to-do-is-make-a-cup-of-tea-with-honey-and-bring-it-to-him-no-explanat/ http://ventingtree.com/my-ex-is-sick-and-all-i-want-to-do-is-make-a-cup-of-tea-with-honey-and-bring-it-to-him-no-explanat/#comments Wed, 25 Apr 2012 19:59:12 +0000 anony http://ventingtree.com/my-ex-is-sick-and-all-i-want-to-do-is-make-a-cup-of-tea-with-honey-and-bring-it-to-him-no-explanat/ My ex is sick, and all I want to do is make a cup of tea with honey and bring it to him. No explanation, no excuses, no thanks necessary. Just make him a cup of tea.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/my-ex-is-sick-and-all-i-want-to-do-is-make-a-cup-of-tea-with-honey-and-bring-it-to-him-no-explanat/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-107/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-107/#comments Sun, 22 Apr 2012 03:32:16 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-107/ I’m freaking out right now. I’m having breakdown. I can’t stop crying. I need help. Please. Someone help me.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-107/feed/ 0 Please, just… stop being such a sycophant. http://ventingtree.com/please-just-stop-being-such-a-sycophant/ http://ventingtree.com/please-just-stop-being-such-a-sycophant/#comments Sun, 22 Apr 2012 03:32:04 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/please-just-stop-being-such-a-sycophant/ Please, just… stop being such a sycophant.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/please-just-stop-being-such-a-sycophant/feed/ 0 Ive dated someone for 3 months, they said they loved me so much, and would never leave me. They left… http://ventingtree.com/ive-dated-someone-for-3-months-they-said-they-loved-me-so-much-and-would-never-leave-me-they-left/ http://ventingtree.com/ive-dated-someone-for-3-months-they-said-they-loved-me-so-much-and-would-never-leave-me-they-left/#comments Fri, 20 Apr 2012 19:15:20 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/ive-dated-someone-for-3-months-they-said-they-loved-me-so-much-and-would-never-leave-me-they-left/ Ive dated someone for 3 months, they said they loved me so much, and would never leave me. They left me for another girl, and i pretend to be ok with it. I pretend to not care about the mean things he says to me. Like im ugly, annoying, and useless. While he gets to be the happiest person in the world with her, im sitting here broken. And he makes it worse. He doesnt give a crap about me and he thinks im ok with it. Im not

]]> http://ventingtree.com/ive-dated-someone-for-3-months-they-said-they-loved-me-so-much-and-would-never-leave-me-they-left/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-106/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-106/#comments Tue, 17 Apr 2012 07:48:37 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-106/ I am angry because he broke my heart. I am angry because he said nasty things about me and accused me of things I didn’t do. I am angry because he chose the other girl instead of me. The one time I truly love someone and they toss me around like dirt. I HATE him so much some days I just want to throw things at him. Scream profanities. YOU HURT ME ASSHOLE! Don’t say we can “be friends” after all this. You ruined the friendship by not trusting me and blowing me off. This is my heart we’re talking about. This is a fragile, gentle organ and you tore it up to shreds! I’m going to slay my violin as the soloist in tomorrow’s concert and you sure as hell WON’T HEAR how amazing I will sound! You (yes you jerk who broke my heart) I HATE you.

For the record this is me pretending to vent on the person. It is not directed at the person reading it.
Just wanted to clarify.
Yes…that is how I feel.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-106/feed/ 0 Okay so I haven’t talked to anyone about this except my boyfriend but he doesnt understand me. We h… http://ventingtree.com/okay-so-i-havent-talked-to-anyone-about-this-except-my-boyfriend-but-he-doesnt-understand-me-we-h/ http://ventingtree.com/okay-so-i-havent-talked-to-anyone-about-this-except-my-boyfriend-but-he-doesnt-understand-me-we-h/#comments Tue, 17 Apr 2012 07:48:24 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/okay-so-i-havent-talked-to-anyone-about-this-except-my-boyfriend-but-he-doesnt-understand-me-we-h/ Okay so I haven’t talked to anyone about this except my boyfriend but he doesnt understand me. We have been together for 5 years and have lived together the entire time minus maybe 6months. We both partied when we first met, and a couple years later I decided to stop partying but he continued. I stuck by his side through everything I didn’t want to do and waited for him to be done with drinking. Its been a while together and I’ve been in his house, theres no pictures of mine on the walls, I only own my clothes and only have a dresser and a couple of automins that have space in them that I fill with my stuff. I feel like it’s never been my home because I have to pick and choose who, or if I want to invite a friend over but he has everyone and anyone over at any time even if he knows I dont like them. I have a car but never go anywhere, but he goes out and sometimes doesnt even tell me where or when he’s coming back. I have seen so much of him, and him of me that I asked him if he would go with the idea of living apart but still being with each other. I have always wanted my own space but not as bad as I do now because we fight often and my anamosity comes from being stuck in his house. I wont even just get up and go because I dont feel good about him not liking it. Ive spent a year trying to get him to understand that if we stay living together we will break up because we fight all the time and have different lifestyles. All I want to do is have my own place, not clean up after him everyday, have peace and quit, and a place of my own to study hard as I am in school. I feel worse everyday because him saying no is like telling me that Im stuck in his house until he decides to let me breathe. I dont have any furniture there, no paintings on the wall, No nice things because he doesnt treat my stuff with the same respect that I treat his stuff. It’s a full time job picking up after him and cleaning up burn marks from his cigarettes, and ashes all over the place. Like i love him and want to be with him but I dont want to do these things anymore because it is driving me further away from him and he doesnt get that. Can anyone tell me if I am being selfish by wanting my own place? Do relationships accualy get stronger when you dont have to see or hear things that bother you everyday? Is it fair that a place that I’ve paid rent for, for that many years isn’t even really mine? I mean I could move anytime but I dont want to on bad terms because I still love him and want to work it out but he wont let me get my own space even after I asked him to help me find a place that he wouldnt mind me living in.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/okay-so-i-havent-talked-to-anyone-about-this-except-my-boyfriend-but-he-doesnt-understand-me-we-h/feed/ 1 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-105/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-105/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:25:49 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-105/ My boyfriend and I were dating for about 4 months- my shortest relationship. I fell in love with the two boyfriends I had before him… but they were different kinds of love. Each one, I knew wasn’t going to last, or just wasn’t *quite* right, despite being great experiences. But this last one way different. I had never felt this way about anyone else- so comfortable, so much desire to show him my love and appreciation, so much desire to learn and grow together, to support and nurture and challenge each other. I saw him in my future. I was utterly confident that we would end up together. He broke up with me a month ago because his anxiety got in the way of everything and caused him to fall out of love with me (even though he still respects and cares for me). It’s been over a month, and I’m still in love with him the same way I used to be. He needs time to readjust and find himself. I just want to reach out and support him and show him how much I care about him. I want to help him find happiness again. But I also want to be with him. I can’t get the idea out of my head that one day we will be together, and it will eventually be for the rest of our lives. But this idea is making me miserable in the present. I think about him ALL the time, no matter what I am doing. I can’t stop the thoughts from penetrating my mind… and they often feel like stabs, cutting deep. But I can’t stop loving him.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-105/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-104/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-104/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:25:25 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-104/ Sometimes I feel like I don’t have real/close friends. Just because I’m not alone, doesn’t mean I’m not lonely.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-104/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-103/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-103/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:25:15 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-103/ Well my mom has been sleeping all day, and I feel completely worthless. At times I feel as if she doesn’t care about me. Like she has apathy, for me! I believe it partakes her wicked disorder, she is bi-polar. Beautiful, Eh?

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-103/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-102/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-102/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:24:54 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-102/ Don’t know what’s going on this week. People never returned calls, people ignore my whatsapp messages, I feel like the entire world is turning their backs on me. even my special one talks differently, i feel optional. I’m used to having attention from girls. Girls chit chat and have deep conversations with me regularly, not this week.

Communication with people isn’t great this week. Work isn’t smooth as well. Nothing ever goes my way. Quotation from supplier got cancelled because they can’t offer the same price anymore. other contractors charged me for VO meaning I need to pay extra.

I don’t know man. I feel lonely all of a sudden. I am emotionally weak. I am insecure. I need a hug from her to tell me everything’s okay, including us.

Could it be Black Friday the 13th?

I wish miss A didn’t go to sleep just like that last night. And still not responding to my whatsapp in the morning. I knew she wasn’t last seen online with me. I just wan’t the last one on her mind.

I wish miss P wouldn’t go offline just like that. Would have been nicer if we had a proper closure to the conversation.

I wish miss N didn’t ignore my “Hello”. She usually responded cheerfully and I really miss the normal N.

I wish miss F would respond to me while she was out. Usually she reports to me everywhere she does/whatever she does.

I wiss mister L would answer my questions directly. I feel he’s avoiding me maybe I suffocate him.

What the fuck is wrong with me???? I didn’t do anything special this week.

Guess I’m done. Thank you The Venting Tree!

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-102/feed/ 0 Oh so all you wanted to do was hook up and have sex? UH NO, WTF TYPE OF PERSON DO YOU THINK I AM?!?!… http://ventingtree.com/oh-so-all-you-wanted-to-do-was-hook-up-and-have-sex-uh-no-wtf-type-of-person-do-you-think-i-am/ http://ventingtree.com/oh-so-all-you-wanted-to-do-was-hook-up-and-have-sex-uh-no-wtf-type-of-person-do-you-think-i-am/#comments Mon, 16 Apr 2012 04:24:42 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/oh-so-all-you-wanted-to-do-was-hook-up-and-have-sex-uh-no-wtf-type-of-person-do-you-think-i-am/ Oh so all you wanted to do was hook up and have sex? UH NO, WTF TYPE OF PERSON DO YOU THINK I AM?!?! It’s crazy how people are and act nowadays.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/oh-so-all-you-wanted-to-do-was-hook-up-and-have-sex-uh-no-wtf-type-of-person-do-you-think-i-am/feed/ 0 I’m in love with Angela, but I pretend to not care at all. Just to get her attention. FML. http://ventingtree.com/im-in-love-with-angela-but-i-pretend-to-not-care-at-all-just-to-get-her-attention-fml/ http://ventingtree.com/im-in-love-with-angela-but-i-pretend-to-not-care-at-all-just-to-get-her-attention-fml/#comments Fri, 13 Apr 2012 05:38:21 +0000 phantomp http://ventingtree.com/im-in-love-with-angela-but-i-pretend-to-not-care-at-all-just-to-get-her-attention-fml/ I’m in love with Angela, but I pretend to not care at all. Just to get her attention.

FML.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/im-in-love-with-angela-but-i-pretend-to-not-care-at-all-just-to-get-her-attention-fml/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-101/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-101/#comments Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:04:16 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-101/ I’m done.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-101/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-100/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-100/#comments Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:04:08 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-100/ Cast in the name of God, Ye not guilty.
I will have this tattooed on me at some point.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-100/feed/ 1 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-99/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-99/#comments Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:03:58 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-99/ I’m waiting for the pills to start working. My sleeping pills. I hope I have enough time to sleep it off.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-99/feed/ 0 It really hurts to be lonely. I get insecure about how other people feel about me and how I act, and… http://ventingtree.com/it-really-hurts-to-be-lonely-i-get-insecure-about-how-other-people-feel-about-me-and-how-i-act-and/ http://ventingtree.com/it-really-hurts-to-be-lonely-i-get-insecure-about-how-other-people-feel-about-me-and-how-i-act-and/#comments Thu, 12 Apr 2012 17:03:50 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/it-really-hurts-to-be-lonely-i-get-insecure-about-how-other-people-feel-about-me-and-how-i-act-and/ It really hurts to be lonely. I get insecure about how other people feel about me and how I act, and gosh, it hurts so much. Sometimes I get over the top without thinking, but it sucks that only afterwards, I really realize how much of a fool I made myself look. Those mistakes build down on me and I feel like crying all the time. I do cry all the time.. and even though it may feel a bit better at that moment, the pain still comes back. I don’t want to think about their opinions anymore, I don’t want to worry anymore, I don’t want to cry anymore.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/it-really-hurts-to-be-lonely-i-get-insecure-about-how-other-people-feel-about-me-and-how-i-act-and/feed/ 0 Post Title http://ventingtree.com/post-title-98/ http://ventingtree.com/post-title-98/#comments Tue, 10 Apr 2012 20:48:33 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/post-title-98/ Why can’t my dad just say something nice about what I’ve done in life!

]]> http://ventingtree.com/post-title-98/feed/ 0 Why do I fall for the things you say? http://ventingtree.com/why-do-i-fall-for-the-things-you-say/ http://ventingtree.com/why-do-i-fall-for-the-things-you-say/#comments Tue, 10 Apr 2012 20:48:25 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/why-do-i-fall-for-the-things-you-say/ Why do I fall for the things you say?

]]> http://ventingtree.com/why-do-i-fall-for-the-things-you-say/feed/ 0 I don’t have someone that I can talk to about everything. i don’t feel comfortable talking to my f… http://ventingtree.com/i-dont-have-someone-that-i-can-talk-to-about-everything-i-dont-feel-comfortable-talking-to-my-f/ http://ventingtree.com/i-dont-have-someone-that-i-can-talk-to-about-everything-i-dont-feel-comfortable-talking-to-my-f/#comments Sat, 07 Apr 2012 23:06:36 +0000 PleaseListen http://ventingtree.com/i-dont-have-someone-that-i-can-talk-to-about-everything-i-dont-feel-comfortable-talking-to-my-f/ I don’t have someone that I can talk to about everything. i don’t feel comfortable talking to my friends about most things. I wonder if I’m always going to be like this. most of the time, i just let my friends see anger and frustration. they don’t know how sad i can get, and how i get when i’m sad. i still can’t tell n because i feel like he’ll get mad and call me stupid. it’s lonely not being able to get some things out.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/i-dont-have-someone-that-i-can-talk-to-about-everything-i-dont-feel-comfortable-talking-to-my-f/feed/ 0 My wife of 15 yrs refuses to go to Opera/plays with me.( a new interest). I go alone. Pisses me off. http://ventingtree.com/my-wife-of-15-yrs-refuses-to-go-to-operaplays-with-me-a-new-interest-i-go-alone-pisses-me-off/ http://ventingtree.com/my-wife-of-15-yrs-refuses-to-go-to-operaplays-with-me-a-new-interest-i-go-alone-pisses-me-off/#comments Fri, 06 Apr 2012 17:29:48 +0000 Anonymous http://ventingtree.com/my-wife-of-15-yrs-refuses-to-go-to-operaplays-with-me-a-new-interest-i-go-alone-pisses-me-off/ My wife of 15 yrs refuses to go to Opera/plays with me.( a new interest). I go alone. Pisses me off.

]]> http://ventingtree.com/my-wife-of-15-yrs-refuses-to-go-to-operaplays-with-me-a-new-interest-i-go-alone-pisses-me-off/feed/ 0