I am a sixteen year old. I have never ha…
I am a sixteen year old. I have never had sex. I have never had my first kiss. I all of my time online because I’ve never fit in anywhere. I have DSI, or Dissociative Identity Disorder, meaning that I have more than one person in my skull. There are five. There is the annoying, hyper person. There is the one always looking to take revenge on society. There is the genius, always logical and calm. There is the depressed and alienated child. And then there is the one that watches it all but is helpless to do anything. I have no life outside the internet. I have never attempted to find help. I probably never will. I am a coward. I am afraid of change, of help. I do not want anyone else to know how I work. I don’t even know how I work. I want to be able to lock myself in a box and be alone for the rest of my life. If you haven’t yet noticed, this is 4 talking. I don’t know if anyone COULD help me. I needed somewhere to say this all, and I thought this would be perfect. I don’t know if anyone’s listening, and I don’t care. I want others to know about me, even if they don’t like me.
Winkle 10:22 pm on February 14, 2010 Permalink |
I am listening. i am sure there is help available if you really want it. But YOU! ( even all 5 of you) have to want it. If you all cannot come to a decision, just get on venting tree and talk to the community here. It is a great place and very helpful in times of need.
Lucas 3:16 am on February 15, 2010 Permalink |
I would suggest trying to get out of your box just for a day or so and experience what life has to offer. I think once you realize how amazing things can be when you get up and get active, you will never want to return to your solo box again. And if it doesn’t work, then return back to where you are comfortable, at least till you are ready to try again. You’ll never get that first kiss my surfin the internet all day.. The world’s a playground! So get out into it and play!! Cuz it’s Insanly Fun!