I made a bad decision that I am going to…

I made a bad decision that I am going to live with for the rest of my life. I keep trying to find anything that will help or make it change and not even my best friend or parents believed I could. It’s like no one ever believe in anything I do and I hate it because it’s like I never have any sort of support. I just don’t know how to feel about the situation. I don’t take things for granite but for once I just want things to go my way.
I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about it and even it I did I’m sure they wouldn’t even care. it’s like everything I do is a big failure. And the worst part is it’s making me so low I’m getting physical marks. I know that compared to everyone else my situation is no big deal. BUT TO ME IT IS! I have inspirations in my life. And it’s crumpling to pieces…