Im in therapy, on 50mg Nortriptylin, and no matter what happens i cant get over the idea that i shou…
Im in therapy, on 50mg Nortriptylin, and no matter what happens i cant get over the idea that i shouldve died two years ago, not my brother. Everyday it haunts the back of my head, when i wake up, when i go to bed, in my dreams and i have to concentrate not to type it out all the time. id give anything to trade places with my brother and die back then. ever since then ive only made life worse for everyone around me. i shouldve died, not him.
anonymous 6:11 pm on April 30, 2010 Permalink |
I’m sorry to hear what you’re going thru. I’ll send some prayers that you find peace. I don’t know the circumstances behind how you feel, but I wish you all the best. While I’m not suicidal, Right now I almost wish I wasn’t here either. I had major surgery several years ago that saved me from cancer and death, and I’m fine with the surgery…but sometimes I just wish nobody saved me and I had just gone away. My father passed away when I was a teenager and I want to be with him so badly sometimes. While our situations are different, I can sort of relate. Good luck to you in your problem. Your brother is looking down on you. It may not feel like it, but rest assured, he is there. Talk to him. It helps me with dealing with my father. It may surprise you how much it can help.