I’m sick of living. The only reason I’m alive is because of my two best friends- Emmy and Drew. I …
I’m sick of living. The only reason I’m alive is because of my two best friends- Emmy and Drew. I made a promise I would never kill myself. I’m starting to regret it. I’m tired of feeling dead and I’m sick of the tears streaming down my face. I just wish something would go right for once. That something would make sense. I just want to know why God lets these things happen.
Roxy 9:23 pm on May 16, 2010 Permalink |
a person can only perceive the world around them by using their brain. the brain relies on a complex soup of chemicals that are constantly manufactured, absorbed, transformed, and discarded. if this magical dance of chemicals is disrupted in any way, emotional extremes result. the extremes are not pretty (but i kind of like the manic extreme). diet, exercise, drugs and therapy in any number of combinations are the only things that are going to change the way you perceive your life. god doesn’t let these things happen. god is not a prick. i think he just started the ball rolling and circumstances come together to create an environment that our brain perceives the best it can. why would any being that is worthy to be called god not love that which it has created ? why would a being that can have or do anything it wants feel the need to inflict pain on that which it has created ? of course god loves you !
you just have to know that you have some power also. now that you know that people’s brains sometimes get out of wack (a lot more than most people are willing to admit), you can seek out the things that need to be done to get yours back on track. it will be tough because your organization, planning and drive activities are not working too well in your brain. the chemical activity needed to make them work is messed up. you might need to get someone that you really trust to help you set up a plan for getting better. time passes, things will get better.