Me and my best friend were inseparable. We literally did everything together, and we hung out everyd…
Me and my best friend were inseparable. We literally did everything together, and we hung out everyday…I let her cry on my shoulder and I was always there we promised each other that nobody would ever come between us. EVEN BOYFRIENDS. but over the summer we grew apart becuase she was always ”working”… this tore me up inside because I had never had a friend like her before. I had other friends and other best friends but not ones i could be my complete self around. laugh and cry with and tell my deepest secrets… but i later came to find out that she was avoiding me. she finally confessed (after my multiple attempts to ”fix things”) that she had started liking her female work friend. i told her i really had no problem with that because i am all for people expressing their sexual orientation and being truly happy. i thought that it was over and we would be back to normal, and for a while it was. but now we walk past each other in the halls as if we were never a big part of each others lives. it kills me inside, and I’m so sad that i lost a friend who i loved dearly. its as if i am dead to her and i really wonder what i did wrong. i never once showed any sign of nonacceptance, and i actually asked her questions and wanted to know more about her love life. i tried so hard to be the friend i always was, and i guess it was not enough. its so hard to get over the fact that i lost a friend, its happened to me so many times and i suppose this was my tipping point. this is one of my most painful experiences yet.
Arizmic 11:56 am on March 6, 2010 Permalink |
Have you considered the fact that se may feel extremely vulnerable after telling you about her sexual orientation? ( if she is keeping it a secret that is) And she is pushing you away because she feels like now you are very capable of hurting her if she ever upset you enough for you to do so.
For instance, she can have you in her life and risk you getting mad at her at some point and blowing her secret. Or she can keep you at a distance and know that her secret is safe… Just some food for thought you know?
itabella 6:17 pm on March 11, 2010 Permalink |
well yes i understand that. but the thing is by her doing this it makes me want to tell people more becuase its pissing me off. even though i would never do that. this is not my secret to tell. and if she thought of me as someone she could trust with her secret, then why would she want to push me away, with her secret.
me 1:49 pm on March 20, 2010 Permalink |
It’s not that she was so friend with you because she was in love with you and now that she founded a real girlfriend she differently interested in you?