My mom always said i was in a hurry to come in to this world, but when i got here i was disapointed….

My mom always said i was in a hurry to come in to this world, but when i got here i was disapointed. My life has had its good moments but as of ritee now at this very moment my life is not what i wishedd it would be. I always thought that my teen years would be the best especially rightt after entering high school but it hasnt. My best friend has been in my life since kindergarden, basically 10 years, but i could care less about her ritee now. Shes going through some problems and im trying to be there for her and be compassionate about her sickness but she just throws it away and stabs me in the back;; to make matters worse my mom makes me feel like im the bad person in this situation, Am I? Shes always taking her sidee because shes “Sick”. No one understands what im going through, no one understands what place im in. Im only fifteen i shouldnt have to go through this, i dont deserve to be treated like shit and have my best friend not believe Me. It hurts because she can believe everyone else nut why not ME?, Why the Hell should i continue to be passionate then? andd to top it all off i think im depressed. I have all the symptoms but i dont have the feelingg? What should i do? all i really want is for someone to be on my sidee, andd give me advice. I can’tt do this anymoree. Someone out there please help me?