I want a divorce. He is a lying cheating asshole and the biggest fuck up I have ever met. I have wasted 25 years. What have I done . . .
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Anonymous
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PleaseListen
I hide my crazy well. On the outside, I look like a normal girl, I go to class everyday, go to work when I’m scheduled, I keep my body in shape (for the most part), and most people think I have a good head on my shoulders. Sometimes I cry uncontrollably when I’m alone, I take pills and other medications to keep me high, or sleeping because I can’t handle reality. I cut myself to feel better, and I often think of suicide and killing inconsiderate people, like my neighbors. I stay with my boyfriend because I hope that he’ll finally grow up and become more responsible, but I can feel myself falling out of love.
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AloneInACrowdedRoom
So I have had some really shitty relationships and so I told myself I wouldnt go into another relationship for a while. And then this guy Kacey came around and he makes me smile and hes sweet, but his best friend is a guy that I was talking to for a year and a half and Im not over him. So I just tell Kacey I cant be in a relationship with him because were to far away and Im not in a position in my life to be in a relationship. Which is kind of true. But I feel horrible, and Im not sure if I really like him or if Im just trying to get to his best friend. -__-
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Anonymous
ahhhhhhh i wanna scream melting dream again
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Anonymous
where have all the good people gone? here!
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vanskelig
For the past few hours at work, I have found myself repeatedly googling phrases like “existential crisis” and “want to kill myself”. I stumbled onto this website by searching “life is going absolutely nowhere”. I don’t really believe anything will come of my posting, but I feel like I’ve exhausted all other options at the moment and do not know where else to turn.
I am losing my will to live. Frankly, I don’t know when it started. It’s been going on for years. I am now 25 and I do not see myself making it to 30. I’m not saying this out of desire for pity. In fact, avoiding pity/concern/ridicule/etc from the people in my life has been a primary motivation for bottling it all up so well I guess. Those closest to me can tell I’m unhappy, but they have no idea the degree. If they knew how miserable and close to the end I truly am, I know it would only terrify and sadden them to the point that it might actually make me even more likely to commit suicide. Understand, at the moment I really don’t want to die, I just see no purpose/meaning/future in my life at all and am running out of ideas/motivation to fix that.
I am not religious and will never be in any traditional sense again. I was as a Christian as a child, and most of my family still is, but I grew as a teenager to no longer believe there was much truth to the story I had been fed. While I know a great many find comfort in it or similar worldviews, I cannot bring myself to pretend I believe in things that I do not.
The closest I’ve come to escaping my depression I guess is through romance. Being able to bring happiness to someone else’s life (not to mention raising children) has always been among the deepest goals of mine, but given my general awkwardness with people and the flimsiness of my own happiness, it is also very difficult. The few relationships that I’ve managed to land have all dissolved in ways which I now believe were almost undoubtedly my fault. Sadly, I don’t forget my failures. They weigh heavily on me and make each new attempt even more perilous.
I don’t know what else I can say for the moment.
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Anonymous
this is going to be my new fav place, I can post and no one will know its me …unlike facebook. my boyfriend who has 2 kids and an ex wife who control him. I hate when he and I have plans and she the ex makes plans for the kids at last minute… I know I rate at the bottom of the heap, but it still makes me crazy …I try to be understanding he wants to see his kids whenhe can but really it is inconsiderate not to at least give a little heads up what s going on. and of course emergencies crop up all the time…. sometimes I just want to throw in the towel on this relationship, but thats easier said than done.
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Anonymous
I’m so tired of being alone. I just want to find someone that will raise my daughters right so I can just end it all. I love my daughters and would never want to hurt them. That’s wy
I just want to be gone from their lives. They could have a much better life if they didn’t have me dragging them down. Will someone please just kill me and put me out of my misery? All I want is to love and be loved by someone that doesn’t consider me “family”. I want to be held and kissed and told that I’m loved. But I guess I’m not good enough for that. I’m not even good enough to be a late night last chance booty call. I give up. I’m going to find someone in my family or their dad’s to raise my girls, they’ll be better off without me. -
Anonymous
Merry Christmas Every one.
I hope things are at least bearable for the next week of Holiday Nightmare.
Hang in there my Venting Friends; Vent it out! Don’t act it out!Signed: The (now) Unhappy Drunk
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Kate
I’m not exactly sure how these things work. But basically, I’m looking for some kind of advice. For many years I’ve felt useless and I cry all the time, sometimes without a reason. I don’t exactly have a hard life, I have some really good friends and most of the time I get on with my family but for some reason I’m never happy. I can go from having a really good day out but as soon as I get home and into my room, I just cry.. I’ve looked up a lot of symptoms for depression and as it appears, it’s more than likely that I am depressed. But I’m so self conscious and have such low self esteem that I can’t bring myself to tell anyone, I appear to be a happy go lucky girl to every I know, but none of them know my pain. I just need some friendly advice, and even by telling me to go and see someone, I won’t, I’m not that confident..
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Anonymous
I can’t stand being near people anymore because no one has any respect for anyone.. one minute they’ll be friends with this one person, and the next, they’ll be talking bad about them to another person who they consider a ‘good friend’ and on and on.. most of the time, i stare off into space and try to forget everything but i can’t because people are constantly bothering me.. like no. go away.. i just want to be alone for at least 5 minutes.
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Anonymous
Hi this post is for anyone who happens to know this bitch, She is so disgusting and fat. She thinks she controls everyone in my dorm but she doesnt she thinks she scares evryone but she doesnt scare me she thinks her girlfriend wants her fat ass but she doesnt she wants My Friend Marcus. She is so ugly and arrogant she has no respect for anyone but wants everyone to respect her. Her name is Crystal Hogan and she is too much for words. She picks on other kids and makes them feel like nonthing i wish there was someone around to stop her somone to make her feel as bad she makes the other girls feel but there is no one because she has all the staff and teachers wrapped around her fingers to the point if we do go and complain she will find out and make our lives worse. She a bully and she has a girl friend back in her home town and i hope she knows she cheating on her. Please if anyone knows this horrible bitch help save these girls because i ve done all i can to help and its going no where
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Anonymous
j it isnt me
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Anonymous
should i kill myself?
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Anonymous
leave me alone
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Anonymous
it isnt posting my completely appropriate vent!
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Anonymous
I love you so much, everyday you’re on my mind. I try very hard to behave and just hope one day you’ll feel the same way and notice how much I care and the things I do because of it…but it scares me to think you never will. And one day you’ll pick someone else and never appreciate how I feel.
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Anonymous
My husband is such an asshole! He drinks to much! I am so sick and tired of his bullshit! He has no respect for me and my kids. He lies to me about his drinking. He is so damn negative all the time. He is so stupid he doesn’t realize what a good family he has! I have been having thoughts of leaving him. I’m tired of all his abuse!!!
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Anonymous
Things that I have posted, have not been shown.
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Anonymous
i’m not suicidal…buttt i cut for the first time a few days ago. every time i look down at my wrist, i smile. it makes me feel strong. i’m the person who makes the largest impact on my life, i have the power. if i can physically harm myself and still keep going then nothing is going to stop me from doing what i want. they tell me i should distract myself with things that make me happy until i actually am happy. cutting it is.
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Anonymous
I used to feel safe around you. I can’t be myself anymore. I guess getting you know and see how crazy I am was too much for you. I wonder how I would faire in a mental institution. Am I too normal for that? Is the only time that place would be suitable for me is when I’m having a breakdown?
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Anonymous
…. my life sux
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Anonymous
Tired of this GotALotOnMyChest postings below. Very bad post. Go away! Please other persons post some stuff so we can get these comments off the front page. Or maybe the Admin could just delete the SHOUTING one.
That would make me happier.
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Anonymous
I’m a high schooler ready to get out. so ready that i’m graduating early. but my parents are still thinking theyre gonna keep me from leaving next year and i’ll go to community college or something. I feel like so far this year i’ve just had the mindset of get through this year and THEN your life will begin. but i don’t want to live my life waiting for something to happen, i want to make it happen NOW.
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Anonymous
I feel so disconnected to him. The only way our relationship has been working is because I distract myself with other guys. I don’t do anything with them except get lunch, hangout, or text them but it makes me feel so appreciated. I guess if you want, you can say that I’m emotionally cheating on him, and I do it because he doesn’t give me the love, attention, and appreciation that I need.
adolf 10:53 am on January 30, 2012 Permalink |
You sound like my wife