Everyone, keep in mind: People are all the same, fears insecurities… just like you.
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Anonymous
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Anonymous
Jesus said, “Come to me all of you who are weary and heavy of heart, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from Me for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for you souls. For My yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 12:28-30. God loves you and has a plan for your life!
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Anonymous
i cant seem to get over my lack of self esteem. its hard to do so when im unsure about how to proceed in life. there are so many regrets and worries in my life, and decisions. I am fearful of the future, and what problems/responsibilities it brings. I fear I cant do many things.
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Anonymous
dear best friend,
you cut, and tried to kill yourself more than once. i helped you for as long as i could but, you know what? fuck you. if you are so determined to be miserable, she can go ahead. and people can tell me i’m being selfish and uncaring, but you’re the selfish one. people can tell me it’s an illness, but you’re not trying to help yourself. i’ve tried and nothing i’ve done was ever good enough. i’m out of this malfunctioning friendship. sorry.
love, an old friend.
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Anonymous
you make me shy every single time!i cant even bring myself to talk to you.how will i ever let you into getting to know me.
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Anonymous
I’m 18 years old with a massive crush on a 50-something man.
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Anonymous
It is okay, George Clooney is hot… Just kidding
This is not a big deal, it is just a crush. =-)
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Anonymous
alright soo i met this guy cooper once through a friend. i we were all together in a group setting at a concert. he lives in the next town over where my best friend (who introduced me)’s boyfriend lives. I kinda felt like we would totally get along well, me and cooper. and i really wanna talk to him more and see him again. Its been about a month since the concert and i feel like it would be creepy of me to randomly start talking to him now. ugh should i just talk to him or let it be?
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Anonymous
Another Best Friend abandoned me. For once it doesn’t hurt too much…I guess I’m used to it so much now that I expect it to happen.
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Anonymous
That new found expectation of disappointment will stop you from being able to get close to anyone.
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aledrea
I’m sick of living. The only reason I’m alive is because of my two best friends- Emmy and Drew. I made a promise I would never kill myself. I’m starting to regret it. I’m tired of feeling dead and I’m sick of the tears streaming down my face. I just wish something would go right for once. That something would make sense. I just want to know why God lets these things happen.
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Roxy
a person can only perceive the world around them by using their brain. the brain relies on a complex soup of chemicals that are constantly manufactured, absorbed, transformed, and discarded. if this magical dance of chemicals is disrupted in any way, emotional extremes result. the extremes are not pretty (but i kind of like the manic extreme). diet, exercise, drugs and therapy in any number of combinations are the only things that are going to change the way you perceive your life. god doesn’t let these things happen. god is not a prick. i think he just started the ball rolling and circumstances come together to create an environment that our brain perceives the best it can. why would any being that is worthy to be called god not love that which it has created ? why would a being that can have or do anything it wants feel the need to inflict pain on that which it has created ? of course god loves you !
you just have to know that you have some power also. now that you know that people’s brains sometimes get out of wack (a lot more than most people are willing to admit), you can seek out the things that need to be done to get yours back on track. it will be tough because your organization, planning and drive activities are not working too well in your brain. the chemical activity needed to make them work is messed up. you might need to get someone that you really trust to help you set up a plan for getting better. time passes, things will get better.
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Anonymous
This place is depressing. Peace out.
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Anonymous
These people just need to vent. You are free to leave and never come back. But know, you will be missed.
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Anonymous
I’m really getting scared that the fact that I know exactly how i’ll end my life has crossed my mind at least once a day for the past 3 years.
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iwantlove2222
I’m drowning in self-pity. I wish that my relationship would work, but he wont love me unless im more confident. I think that i might be clinically depressed, and that it might be going on my third year of it. I don’t feel as if I have any control over my emotions,i take every word to heart, i over-obsess, i dont consider myself happy, i just feel like im drowning. I cant tell anybody because id just sound stupid. I need help. I’ve seen that knife too many times…..
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Chrysalis
You are a good person. You are worthy of being loved. You are loved. You are depressed, but you can you can tame the black dog that skulks around and tries to pull you down. It is spring and the days are getting longer. Promise and opportunity are in the air. You will wake up tomorrow and seize the day. You will wake up tomorrow early and go for a walk in the sunshine. The sun will warm you and brighten you up. It will become a habit because it feels so good to have the time to think about and plan your day and your life. You will realize that you are in control and the answers will come. You are no less a person then were the pharaohs of Egypt or the royalty of Europe. Believe in yourself, I do.
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aledrea
I hate it that I’m acting more responsible than my dad. He’s too lazy to put things away or even clean the house once in a while. Geez! I’m just so sick of everything! I have to go through a ton of other things too. Why is God playing such a cruel joke on me? At least I have Bradley to talk to. He’s one of the reasons I’m alive.
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Dad
I am sorry . So sorry for your pain. I am trying very hard to be a good dad. This damn depression takes any kind of drive out of me. It is like a bad dream where you try to run or move but you are just too tired to. A fog seems to cover everything. nothing is bright or colorful or clear, just dull.
I can’t get anything organized in my head. Trying to do even the simplest task seems pointless. I have tried so many medications to fix this. I am not giving up though. I just want you to know that I love you and that my actions are not the result of a character flaw. They are the result of this illness. I try to shield you from anything that might worry or upset you. I love you with all my heart and you are the reason that I am still alive. Don’t worry, I will get through this and we will have many more happy times. Just like the old days.-
Anonymous
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Anonymous
I’m with you. Not her or him. Let me have a life and please just breathe! We both want this to work.
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Anonymous
U fuckin hate myslef. Why i am so introverted i will never know. I have some many chances to make new friends, and to be popular, but for some reason i fuck it all up by not talking. I mean people try to be nice to me, and try to talk to me, but in the end i cant keep a conversation going, and i am always so self conscious. I wish to god, i can change. my life has been a series of missed oppurtunities, I just want to cry, then drink, and smoke. then repeat till i have some common sense to grow some balls.
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Anonymous
i feel ya. im the same way. and it sucks..i feel like that one oppertunity will come one day tho..where youre just gunna say ah fuck it.and do something really extroverted. and then all will be wekk
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aledrea
It not fair how I’ve dealt with a lifetime of troubles in my 16 years. No friends till eight grade. made fun of for unknown reasons! Parents have been divorced since I was 3 or 4. My grandmother is so freakin’ manipulative. I’ve been suicidal for five years (I’ve had depression longer.) I used to be a cutter. I spend most of my time in my room reading and writing. I have average grades. Everyone always talks about how great my sister is and how smart she is. I have trust and abandonment issues. Every time something good happens in my life it backfires after a few months. No matter how much I want to let go I promised my best friend I wouldn’t. I hate it how people talk about me behind my back. I just want to shove their little gossiping right back in their pathetic, stuck-up faces!!! I hate who I am! I don’t get why God does this to me. My dad might die in a few years, mom is probably going to lose her job next month. My cousin looks like hes knocking on death’s door (he does drugs and it’s taking it’s toll on him.) Sometimes I just want to scream at people telling them to shut up and deal with their own problems! I wish people knew how much I wanted to have more friends. I only have 3 actual friends (two of which are more like an acquaintance). I’m scared what the future holds for me. I’m scared that the troubles won’t end. That I’m going to be dealing with trouble after trouble my whole life. I hate being abandoned by friends. They leave me for popularity. I try to look happy at school. It hurts so much when I’m the only person who doesn’t get a partner when we go off into groups for a project. If only people could feel the pain I feel everyday. Sometimes I pray that I’ll die. I’m tired of being the pity friend. people in my grade only talk to me because I’m standing all alone. Well, what if I don’t want your frickin’ pity!? I just want an actual friend, not a pity friend! I want someone to talk to. I never chose to be a loner.
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Anonymous
I feel so empty and have no one to talk too. I feel like everyone talks mean about me behind my back. Whatever. I hate all things i’ve done.
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itsjustme
What do you do with a boy who can be a sweetheart but a douche at the same time? It tears me apart.
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Anonymous
choices.. to be with my ex (she has a reputation of a slut but loves me with all her heart) or to risk it with someone new? to stay in my current band and enjoy while making (some) money or sell my ass and play music I hate for bigger cash? I hate this.
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Anonymous
read between the lines and realized I am happy the way I am because WORLD THIS IS ME <3
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peoplesucksometimes
I can’t do anything right. I had a great friend and ruined it in a way I don’t know… I wish I knew what happened. Start vent directed at a so called friend to make me feel better since I’m not sending this to them tho I should…
Everything was fine, and I even made a visit for a week cross country with nothing said about anything being wrong, after being BEGGED to come out. And up to a little over a month ago send me texts or FB messages to call you at x time or “where are u” messages, then shove me away for me calling or messaging to much. You asked me to! WTF?! You told me that you wanted IN YOUR OWN WORDS, your “daily dose of sanity” by talking to me in the mornings or nights, or a message to say hi and good morning. Now that I do, you shove me away and say “you’re a good friend but”…Well screw ya! Are you serious? (And BTW friend…Your and You’re have 2 DIFFERENT meanings…LEARN THEM DAMNIT). Looking back at all the messages from before about 7 weeks ago in trying to figure out what happened between us, you were fine with us talking because you were the one initiating, keeping conversations going with “hey what happened to ya” if I disappeared for a few minutes, or wondering where I was if I wasn’t home when I usually am or something anyway. Hell you even bought a new laptop to take on vacation a few months ago so that we could chat and FB together when u had downtime. Don’t act like s**t is ok when it’s not. Got a friggen problem, TELL ME. Don’t sit on it for over a month after I leave from visiting you, ignore me when I ask if everything is ok when you’re so quiet and not yourself. I was there for you when some major trouble happened. I offered my prayers, my support and a shoulder. But I’m gonna tell ya…The trouble that happened was YOUR KIDS CHOICE. She’s a 30 year old ADULT. That was her choice. Yea, you’re a parent, but shit, let her learn from HER mistake. Don’t mop up after her and make it all better like she’s in elementary school. She’s in trouble. She needs to learn from that, not have her problems solved for her. Yes be there for her and support her emotionally, but s**t, let her learn from her choice too. And don’t wonder how to not hurt my feelings by bringing something up. I appreciate the thought, but I’m a damn adult, let me know so I’m not wondering what the hell is going on. I’d rather know than wonder why you’re ignoring me. Grow a pair will ya? Good grief. Honesty damnit. Friends should be up front with friends, not pussyfoot around issues. Real friends will understand and go on with the “relationship”. If I were a real friend, you wouldn’t have sat on this for so long and just said something like “I need to back off for awhile. I’ll catch up with you in a week or two”. I’d have been FINE with that. F*n spit it out and move on damnit. Seems other than my fiance who I don’t see too often with work and stuff, and this particular individual at the time, I must turn people off since it almost seems lately nobody wants to talk to me. I am a funny, down to earth and caring person (as long as ya don’t piss me off) who doesn’t ask for much other than friendship and a “hey how are you” and a little conversation every once in awhile. We were close…I’ve never been close with people and this is why. I finally do and I get hammered. FML. Makes me wonder if I’m really friends with these people in my life or they just be nice to me not to hurt my feelings. Again, grow a pair. Wanna be friends or not? Friends usually talk or just say “hi, how are ya? Wanted to check in and catch up” more than once a millennium. After this last event, I’m never getting close to anyone like that ever again. It hurts like hell and now I wish I’d never met this person and they were my best/closest friend. While it is not a fight and we still wanna be friends to a point, but I’m not going outta my way to be there when needed anymore, or go out when BEGGED to. I give up. I’m sick of hearing “you’re a nice and caring person, but…”. I try to be a good friend and listener but am sick of getting f*d over. I’m such an idiot for even caring about some people. I never learn. I’m done caring for people as much as I do. Don’t get me wrong, yes I’ll still care, but not as much as I do. Honestly I’m not a complainer, but damn I’m friggen so angry right now I could put my fist thru a wall. Venting here is a better idea. Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate all I have in my life, but I hate freakin “friend politics”…And for cryin out loud…Don’t be pissed because I friended 4 friends of yours on FB who requested or asked in person that I add them. Holy cow are we adults or high schoolers? GET OVER IT! Good grief. You have more of my friends on your FB list than I have your friends on mine, and you’ve never met my friends! At least with one exception to who asked me to add them, I’ve met yours and been asked to add, or YOU told them to friend me – “hey I wanna introduce you to ___. I’ll tell them to send a request ok?”. And the other exception was someone that played a game I was in so I friended them to have someone else on the list. Geez at least I’ve met these people with the exception of your one son, the game player and the lady YOU introduced to me. Again…You have NEVER met my friends..Hell..You’ve never even been to my state! There’s no f*n way you’d know my friends anyway. YOU’RE ACROSS THE COUNTRY. Always have been, always will be. Oh and your kids. One you wanted me to friend for a stupid game I don’t even play anymore and the other you wanted me to friend so I could see his pics. If he wanted me to see those, he’d friend me. So YOU set those up. Not me. I don’t bitch about…”OMG you’re friends with X,Y, Z…They’re my friends….”. That’s jealousy, and not a true friend trait to me. Hell, wanna be friends with my friends, knock yourself out! I don’t care who the hell you’re friends with. That’s your business. Who I’m friends with is mine. Holy s**t. Give me a break. Damn, people suck. I wonder why I cared so much for you as a friend when it was all for nothing, especially this past year. F**K YOU. After all that I’m rethinking this whole friend to a point thing too…Screw it. It’s not worth it. I’m over ya. Just boxed up all the stuff you sent for birthday and s**t too…Dunno what I’m doin with it yet. Makes me sick just looking at it. You used to be a fun loving chatty person. Now you don’t give 2 hoots about ANYTHING but spewing your political shit all over FB. Sick of it. Hid you from my feed. END VENT. **Burns symbolic effigy of former best friend** Thank you venting tree. I feel better now. -
Anonymous
Im in therapy, on 50mg Nortriptylin, and no matter what happens i cant get over the idea that i shouldve died two years ago, not my brother. Everyday it haunts the back of my head, when i wake up, when i go to bed, in my dreams and i have to concentrate not to type it out all the time. id give anything to trade places with my brother and die back then. ever since then ive only made life worse for everyone around me. i shouldve died, not him.
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anonymous
I’m sorry to hear what you’re going thru. I’ll send some prayers that you find peace. I don’t know the circumstances behind how you feel, but I wish you all the best. While I’m not suicidal, Right now I almost wish I wasn’t here either. I had major surgery several years ago that saved me from cancer and death, and I’m fine with the surgery…but sometimes I just wish nobody saved me and I had just gone away. My father passed away when I was a teenager and I want to be with him so badly sometimes. While our situations are different, I can sort of relate. Good luck to you in your problem. Your brother is looking down on you. It may not feel like it, but rest assured, he is there. Talk to him. It helps me with dealing with my father. It may surprise you how much it can help.
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Anonymous
Thanks for telling me you’ll always be there. Thanks for being a GREAT LIAR!
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Anonymous
Totally!
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Anonymous
I dont understand why i cant be myself around other people!! its like something is preventing me from expressing my self and being and individual. why am i so fuckin desperate for approval. GOD damnit!!! all i want to do is not care…just say fuck everyone i am who i am.
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anonymous
seriously fuck everyone..:)how can you love others when you don’t love yourself?
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Anonymous
First get confortable in your own skin and then others will like you for who you are without you having to try.
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itsjustme
♫ Maybe we’re just trying too hard, when really it’s closer than it is too far ♫
Donna 8:12 am on May 25, 2010 Permalink |
dear friend,
you have a beautiful soul. the ability to feel the pain of someone else and then to work to relieve their pain is a trait that will smooth your life journey and the journey of others. as far as your friend’s condition, he/she does not have the ability to be selfish. a depressed person wants nothing for the self. he/she is not trying because even the thought of trying can not be formulated. something is wrong with the equipment that can make these feelings possible within their mind. the IMPERATIVE thing now is to get this friend to a professional for help ! let the professional know that your friend has attempted suicide already (ESSENTIAL). the professional knows that a previous attempt is the single greatest indicator that another will follow. your friends reactions to your attempts to help so far are not meant as a personal affront to you. very likely you are at the other end of the very thin thread that this person is clinging to life with. people such as yourself have the knack for doing the right thing (such as putting that p.s. in there). your friend is very lucky to have you !!!!