U fuckin hate myslef. Why i am so introverted i will never know. I have some many chances to make ne…

U fuckin hate myslef. Why i am so introverted i will never know. I have some many chances to make new friends, and to be popular, but for some reason i fuck it all up by not talking. I mean people try to be nice to me, and try to talk to me, but in the end i cant keep a conversation going, and i am always so self conscious. I wish to god, i can change. my life has been a series of missed oppurtunities, I just want to cry, then drink, and smoke. then repeat till i have some common sense to grow some balls.